One of the hardest weeks of my life.

                                               One of the hardest weeks of my life.
I honestly never thought this was going to be my story. Martin and I thought we would like to give Charlie a sibling, we think its the best gift we could ever give him. And let me tell you its really fun progress. On July 7th we took a test and found out I was pregnant!!! We were so excited it was something we wanted for a long time. We wanted to keep this our little secret for a long as we could but on Thursday July 12th I had a bad bleed when I was at work!! Then the secret was out.  I felt fine but I was bleeding. Martin came and got me and we went to the walk in center and then we were sent to A&E just to make sure I was OK. The Dr there book me in for a early scan on Tuesday morning.

 So now all we could do was wait for Tuesday and pray that this baby was okay. Tuesday morning comes and we go in the the scan and they could not find a baby, but they knew there was something there on the left side. They said it was either a cyst or ectopic pregnancy. They send me for a blood test to see what is going on and to see what my hormone level was. They told us to go but don't go to far and just wait for a call. Martin took me out for lunch at Pizza Express which is one of my favorite places to eat. We then go out for coffee with my good friend Rachel while we are all just waiting for the call.

 I get the call and they say I need to come back and I am going to have an operation. My levels were 15,000 and the Dr said that was very high. Then I go back they book me in and then I have to wait until 7pm for the operation because I had lunch. My Dr was so good and explained it all to me what was going on and what was going to happen. He thought the pregnancy was on the left side. He tells me that he is going to take my left fallopian tube and sometimes they have to take the right side as well. I just say well thank goodness we have Charlie the best child a girl could ask for. They take me down and say to Martin don't worry we will have her back to you in a few hours. Five hours later I am out of surgery and in recovery.
During the surgery they could not find the pregnancy in either of the tubes the Dr told me they looked and looked and then they found it. That silly egg got so lost it did not go up my tubes like it is supposed it. It went behind my cervix and attached itself to my bowels well that is the nice way to put it. That is when they called in a bowel surgeon to help. Thankfully they were able to take the egg out without too much damage to my bowel. I lost a liter of blood during the operation but I was doing ok. The good thing is it all they did not have to take any of my tubes! The dr even said they are in great condition.
I am so thankful Martin was able to spend everyday in the hospital with me. He would leave at night but he was by my side as much as he could be. I had a few days when I did not feel very good. I don't know if was the pain that was making me sick or was it all the pain meds I was taking. Martin really gets the husband of the year award. He got all the good jobs like holding my puke bowl and wiping my face. Martin really is the best husband I could have ever asked for, thank you God for giving him to me. On Friday my Dr says to me go home we don't want you here anymore!! Ok that might sound bad but he was the best Dr he had the best bedside manner. He made me laugh, understood when I cried. Leaving he said to Martin and I it was nice to meet you and I hope to see you both on the labor ward in a year. It was the nicest thing to hear. He gave me hope that everything is going to be ok.
I am doing well. Its been over a week now and I get better everyday. I am so thankful for all my friends and family that have called or have come seen me. My friends have come and brought me flowers and some of my favorite chocolates. Its nice to know that even my friends and family in the States have kept me in their prayers. Just knowing that everyone was praying and thinking of me was encouraging. Charlie has been a great little helper, he brings me the things I need and he has helped me around the house.
I know that Gods hand has been on me through this entire situation. I am faithful he has a plan for my life, its hard to go through things like this. But God has a plan for me and my family. I have and will have days when I dont know why this has happened but those are the days when you just can not ask why? Because I will never know. I can only live in the hope that this story will end happy. But I am happy because I have Martin and Charlie in my life. Charlie is the happiest and greatest boy. It is so fun and amazing to watch him grow and learn.
Thank you for reading and all the support that you have given to my family.